Monday, November 28, 2011

31 Week Update - What's With All The Pain?

This is not going to be my usual update. As with my last couple updates, I feel redundant. Of course, I have the same sleeping issues and we are still expecting girls. However, I have officially hit the point, where I want to say, "I'm done with being pregnant." Obviously, I want the girls to stay inside me as long as possible, for I want them to be as healthy as possible (and avoid NICU). However, I currently feel like I did with DD when I was 39 weeks with her. The area below my breasts is burning and so uncomfortable. I literally started crying today because it was painful and I could not find a position where I could get comfortable. I can't wear a bra anymore, for that makes the pain worse. I'm still trying to organize the nursery and clean the house, which frustrates me even more.

My physically pain is definitely taking its toll on me emotionally. It's so draining when you can't do anything for the pain and when the pain prohibits you from doing things you need to do. I'm so grateful for my twins, but sometimes I wonder if my body can handle two babies. How the heck did the Octomom carry so many babies--it's beyond my comprehension!

I love these babies with all my heart, and I hope that my pain tolerance can crank it up a notch!

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Giving Thanks

There is so much to be thankful for this year. My wonderful husband who has been supportive through the good and bad. Not only is he a great husband, but he's an incredible father. Our sweet daughter lights up our world daily with her laughs, hugs and kisses. And, of course, we (all three of us) are so thankful for our two growing little babies. Sometimes, it is difficult to believe that I am actually pregnant (with twins) and that we'll be meeting our two baby girls soon.

A friend of mine recently quoted: The happiest people do not have the best of everything...They make the best of everything they have. My DH and I complain about our house being too small, but I'm thankful that we have a home. A home full of love and warmth. We wish we had a bigger bank balance, but we are thankful that we have money to support a family with food, clothes, and a home. We haven't gone on a vacation in over a year (or maybe two), but we find fun things to do as a family (that doesn't always involve spending money).

Did I mention, I'm thankful that my Mom is cooking Thanksgiving dinner this year?! I'm so blessed to have such a loving mother!

We are thankful for the big and small things in our lives.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Update: 30 weeks

How far along? 30 weeks!

Weight gain? I haven't weighed myself, but I'm guessing 28-29 pounds.

Symptoms: Heartburn is more frequent now. Feel jibs/kicks all over!

Stretch marks? Not yet! Let's hope it stays that way!

Sleep? Sleep is overrated. Waking up several times a night to pee. Flip/flopping sides all night.

Best moment this week? Not having to wear my prenatal cradle this week. I didn't feel like I needed it this week.

Movement? Every now and then I get a nice jab in the cervix or a kick to the ribs, but it's getting really crowded in there.

Food Cravings? bagels and apples

Gender? TWO GIRLS!!!

What I miss? Being able to cut my own toe, I got a pedicure this week! :)

What I'm looking forward to? Meeting our little girls.

Milestones: With only 7 more weeks to go, the countdown has begun!

Emotions: Still getting emotional over little stuff. The fact that I can't do as much stresses me out. I want to climb the ladder and fix the lightbulb...but the voice inside me says 'wait until your husband gets home.' Which also means it will probably take 2 weeks to change the lightbulb.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Donor Egg Gossip

I've been wanting to write about this in my blog for awhile now. I was afraid if I wrote about it when I first encountered the situation this would be a very angry post. It still makes me irritated, but at this point, I just shake my head at some people.

One day I was helping at my daughter's school in the cafeteria. She was a new student there, so I really wanted to get involved right away and get to know other parents/students. The moms I did meet that day were very welcoming and of course, interested in my twin pregnancy. I got the usual question, "do twins run in your family?" My usual answer: on my husband's side. Then, as an hour or so passed, the one mom said there were twins in the lunch room now. I heard her whisper to the other mom, "there's a story behind them, I'll tell you later." At that point, I thought, "a story?" Little did I expect to hear the "story" she was about to tell us later. From the start, I didn't like the tone, for it sounded like gossip. As we were cleaning up for the day, she proceeded to tell us that the twins' mother had problems getting pregnant, so she used an egg donor. Her words felt like a punch to the gut when she then said, "can you believe someone would do that?" (I blocked the rest of their conversation's like I had a shield up to protect myself from their opinions on donor eggs). As it was, I didn't know what to say and I felt I couldn't say anything. I felt awkward--I didn't want to hear this nor did I care that another mother used an egg donor (it's her business). I wanted to stand up for that mother, though because I'm guessing she went through infertility struggles like the rest of us who have to seek an egg donor. Then, I felt angry. I was angry that this mom who I just met was talking "bad" about using an egg donor. She was so narrow-minded and really had no business talking about another mother's decision to use donor eggs.

This is a good example of why I don't want to tell anyone that we used donor eggs. I still feel it's important for our daughters to know how they were conceived with donor eggs and to know at an early age. If they want to tell others, that's their right, but I am not freely giving out their conception story. People are too judgmental of others and truthfully, I don't want to be a part of the gossip circling the school moms. I feel like a "wuss" about it--I should stand up for the use of donor eggs and the mothers who use them, but I'm just not there yet. It's a private family matter, and I think it should be kept that way--private.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Update: 28 weeks 4 days

How far along? 28 wk 4 days

Weight gain? 27 lbs (gained 3 lbs in the last 3 weeks). I feel the weight gain slowing due to the fact of limited space for food.

Symptoms: Burning belly and belly button, back aches, some heartburn, stuffy nose (esp. at night) and lots of movement inside my belly.

Stretch marks? Not yet! It's difficult to believe with all this stretching.

Sleep? Uncomfortable (nothing new) and the stuffy nose at night gives me dry mouth in the morning. DH says I'm snoring. So, he probably isn't sleeping good either.

Best moment this week? I had another scan today and saw the babes (hadn't seen them in 3 weeks). Both babies are growing nicely...measuring a week ahead. Their growths are about 15% differentiated. Baby A is smaller, measuring about 2 lbs 13 oz and Baby B (who was more active today) was about 3 lbs 2 oz. After today's appointment, I now understand the way they are positioned in my belly, which makes sense why I have more movement on the one side of my belly.

Movement? Love being able to see them poking at my belly. Lots of movements!

Food Cravings? Healthy: apples & peanut butter

Gender? TWO GIRLS!!!

What I miss? Being as active with our daughter. She had a rough day and held her arms up to me (as if to hold her), and it broke my heart that I couldn't pick her up.

What I'm looking forward to? Meeting our little girls.

Milestones: Passed my GD test.

Emotions: Lately, I've been very emotional. Things that normally wouldn't make me cry are making me weepy. When the OB/GYN said she'd see me in 4 weeks. I felt like crying. Isn't 4 weeks too long? A lot can happen in 4 weeks! it makes me want to cry.